Google translate of that article: It goes to show that people that are different don't really have an easy time in football (or team sports in general). I can certainly sympathize with him and understand why he turned to the bottle.
For many boys and girls around the world it is their big dream: to become a professional football player. Every week thousands of children run into the field, encouraged or not encouraged by fanatical parents, hoping to be discovered by a scout of a professional football club. And in the evening in their room they look dreamily at posters by Neymar or Lionel Messi. Jacob Lensky was also such a dreamer, but he ended up in a nightmare.
The career of Jacob Lensky (1988) started as that of any other talented footballer. The born Canadian ended up at the age of eight in the youth training of Blackburn Rovers, but nostalgia brought him back to his native country after three years. Four years later, Lensky crossed the big lake again and after a successful internship he ended up in Celtic's youth academy. In January 2007 he made the transition to the youth academy of Feyenoord. A month later, he made his debut in the 3-0 away match against FC Twente, when he fell for Jonathan de Guzmán. However, it remained with one performance and on 5 August 2008 he made it a surprise to many people at the age of 19 to stop playing football.
He did not make this decision because of a serious injury, but because of a growing alcohol problem. For Lensky, a place in the locker room of Feyenoord, the Nirvana of a lot of Rotterdam boys, turned out to be a hell: "I was a spontaneous and open boy, but teammates consciously damaged me. Even those of whom I thought they were my friends used me. Every day, I was only whined away while I tried to prove myself. By famous players, boys with a great track record. Every ball they found shit, and again and again they asked why I could not just leave. Then they were away from me. "Violent words of a gentle boy. A dressing room with vedettes such as Giovanni van Bronckhorst, Roy Makaay, Kevin Hofland and Michael Mols would be an intimidating environment for every youth, let alone when it comes to a teenager in a foreign country that is deliberately thwarted by thirties. It was an environment where a stiff trainer like Gertjan Verbeek would die a year after Lensky's departure.
Less than a year later, however, Lensky returned to his decision. He resurfaced at FC Utrecht and got a one-year contract there. Why? Out of love for the game, because his teammates could be stolen: "Tactically it is interesting, moreover, there is a lot of speed and full stadiums are cool. But I hate the world around it terribly. It is completely sick. Almost everyone behaves conservatively, you can not be different. I am different and people find that strange. I am closing off from the rest at the club. Nobody really knows me. But footballers are not my types. My biggest annoyance? Everyone is the same. They all love video games, they have the hair neatly with gel in model and if one has something, the other wants that too. Pure herd behavior. I think it's terrible. "
Within the lines it went fine with Lensky. The multifunctional Canadian was a valued force and played 55 games in two seasons. Outside the lines, however, the problems increased. For an intelligent and sensitive boy like Lensky, life as a footballer was far from satisfying: "You go to the training in the morning, come home at one o'clock or one in the afternoon. And then it starts. All that time you have to fill. Boredom. It was, I immediately say, all to myself. I did not adjust well, I did not deal with people enough. I regret that. "Lensky grabs the bottle more and more often in an attempt to drive away the boredom:" At one point I lived like a rockstar. I was a VIP, I was that famous football player, I got privileges. Now I know: the people with whom I celebrated parties at the time were just looking for entertainment. "
However, this did not happen automatically: "When I went back to Canada, I thought I would solve everything there. But the first years after my return I just spent my most difficult time. "It took a few years before he was in good physical and physical condition. In 2015, Lensky said in an interview with the FC Utrecht club site: "Now, for a number of months, I have reached the point where I have put my ego aside. I'm fine with me. No, it is even very good. I have a girlfriend, enjoy life. And of the time I spend with my friends and family. In the meantime I am working on starting up my own company. I'm pretty excited. "
Not surprisingly, Lensky is no longer interested in football. "I do not follow football at all anymore. My father does. When I visit him, the television is always on football. England, Spain, Germany, probably also the Netherlands. He follows everything. But I do not look anything. I do not have any contacts there either. I occasionally accept a friendship request from the Netherlands on Facebook, but I do not know those people at all. Hopefully it goes well with them. I no longer have contact with players from my time at Feyenoord or FC Utrecht. "
What remains are the unhelpful 'what if' thoughts: "Becoming a pro. Always been my goal. I reached it, I thought: I will do this for the rest of my life. What else has happened ... I soon wondered: what is the use of this existence? Then I also asked myself everything: why? Why football? Why here? Why me? Why this life? If I could redo it all, I would do it differently. Now I accept more things as they are. But sometimes I think: I could put on my FC Utrecht training suit again and go on the field with the boys, on Zoudenbalch. I would like to see if I could still handle the level. I am fit, I play football at a local amateur club and I think I can. But that opportunity has been. I messed it up. Nobody else than I is guilty of that. That's still a hard pill to swallow. "